Programs
We love our habits more than our income, often more
than our life.
Bertrand Russell
One
of the main aspects of socio-cultural programming is what is called
“imprinting.” Human beings are born with certain basic behaviour patterns built
in their DNA. Just as a flower will follow a certain
series of steps from the emergence of the seedling to the stage of producing a
flower, human beings also develop certain characteristics only at certain times
in their growth process. These sequences are something over which we have no
control.
[…] We are all programmed. Our programs are
written in the circuits of our brains by those around us in our formative
years, just as their programs were written during their formative years, and so
back into the mists of time. Each generation just adding a few more lines of
code.
It
is our ideas that shape our children. We provide what we may consider to be the
ideal environment for the child, but our own programming determines what we may
consider to be the “proper environment.” Once we have provided the environment
we then want our children ton like it, to approve of it, to agree with us that
it is “right.” And our ideas come from our culture. And our culture is created
by…what? A Control System?
There
is considerable evidence that “agreement” is also “in the genes.” There seems
to be a genetic drive toward communion with others, for speech and preferences
and disposition. As newly born human beings, it seems we come into the world
with intent to be in agreement with others. But the details of how we go about
being “agreeable” is related to the imprints we receive at various stages of
childhood development.
Everyone
carries in their genes, it seems, deep archetypes that
are very much like a database program just waiting for someone to input data.
The thing is, this database is only open to input for a limited period of time,
and whenever data is entered during that time determines how all other data
will be evaluated forever after. It will produce over and over again the same
response to any set of stimuli that have one or more items that have been
organized by the database. Anything that is not found in the database is
“discarded.” If the database is not utilized and no data is entered during the
period of “readiness,” or imprinting, that possibility goes dormant and
diminishes.
The
higher thinking functions laid over the deep level archetype database, can be
viewed as a kind of software that is linked to the database, and must
constantly check with it in order to operate. You could think of it as a word
processing program with a fixed dictionary and set of templates and you can
only write in it according to the templates and you can only use the words that
are in the already fixed dictionary. Since our brains are genetically designed
to accept imprint conditioning on its circuits at certain crucial points in
neurological development, these critical points are known as times of Imprint
Vulnerability. The imprint establishes the limits or parameters within which
all subsequent conditioning and learning will occur. Each successive imprint
further complicates the matter, especially if some of these programs are not
compatible with others.
[…] It seems, according to research, the
“older” brain structures – those necessary for basic survival, such as the
brain stem – are imprinted in the earliest stages of development and that the
“newer structures” such as the mid-brain and the cortex develop
“superimpositions” upon the more primitive imprints. However, the earlier parts
of the brain and their imprints form the foundation for how later imprints are
responded to and continue to function after the higher thinking modes are
developed.
In
other words, if you are traumatized as an infant at a crucial point of Imprint
Receptivity, it doesn’t matter if you grow up to be the President of the
[…] The first stage or circuit is the
oral-passive-receptive, and is imprinted by what is perceived to be the mother
or the first mothering object. It can be conditioned by nourishment or threat
an is mostly concerned with bodily security. Trauma during this phase can cause
an unconsciously motivated mechanical retreat from anything threatening to
physical safety.
[…]
The second stage, or circuit, the famous “anal phase” is concerned with keeping
or letting go of experiences in interactions with others. The second circuit
determines how they will expand their identity to include others. The drive of
the second phase is to interact with other selves. It is the drive that either
brings about the congregation of groups or results in paranoid withdrawal from
anyone who is “different.” Trauma in the formation of this circuit (generally
from 12 months to 24 months) can result in a lack of social feeling, a tendency
to manipulate and exploit others for one’s own gain and cruelty to others
whether conscious or unconscious. This is generally a result of a feeling of
non-acceptance, that one is missing out on something that others have, the need
for approval from others and basic lack of self-esteem.
[…] It is during this phase that the “matrix”
forms as a “semantic universe” of verbal structures…a sort of “framework of
perception” that we learn as we learn words…It is at this stage that most of
our complex belief systems are formed. Everything that surrounds him is raw
material for the child. The matrix is, in reality, a gigantic conditioning
system. And we insert our children into it through our own actions.
[…] The third circuit/stage is charmingly
referred to as “phallic.” Don’t ask me
why this term has been selected over all others but it has to do with the fact
that the imprinting stage is associated with the child’s discovery of his/her
genitals and this period also seems to partly determine gender role
identification as well as one’s later attitudes toward the body and sex. It is
also called the Oedipal or Electra stage.
This
circuit continues to be imprinted and conditioned by symbol systems, i.e. words
and concepts, however with subtle conceptual complications. The child is
beginning to be able to understand complex symbolism and such things as “now”
and “later” and “soon” and “never.” These concepts are intimately connected to
the ability to tolerate separation as well as to mourn if the idea of grief is
introduced and demonstrated by a role model.
[…] Those who are dominated by the 3rd
circuit respond to problems by “reasoning” it out, even if their reasoning is
being directed by the emotions of the 1st or 2nd circuits. When this is the
case, they called be called a “third circuit robot” because they simply cannot
break free of the emotional content of their rules and dogma. For such people,
the rest of the nervous system has, for all intents and purposes, stopped
growing.
There
are two curious manifestations of this circuit. If 1st and 2nd
circuits are basically healthy and the 3rd circuit is not
traumatized in any notably serious way, but no effort to develop higher
faculties is made, the “normal conscious mind” has two basic “tracks.” The
[first] one is the desire to use the intellect to prove that much of human
experience, even including the reality itself, is delusion or illusion.
Everything is mysterious or hallucinatory. The second is to use the intellect
to prove that nothing exists BUT the material world and anything mysterious is
viewed as hallucination, coincidence or sloppy research!
[regarding
the discovery of “betrayal and deception”]
[…] These circuits had been “turned on” inside
me. The only thing is, I KNEW what was happening! I could feel the
neuropeptides rushing out of the brain centers, flooding my system and binding
to the receptors all over my body. Anyone who has ever been in this position
will know what I am talking about.
The
difference is: I KNOW that it is CHEMICAL. I know that it is a result of a
circuit activation that connects elements of a present experience to something
deep in the past; infantile responses. I know that the reaction is encoded in
the brain, and that the chemicals are released according to a single trigger.
If
you have a negative experience as an infant in a room painted blue, you will be
programmed to react negatively to blue, and whenever you are in a blue room
your brain will release the same neuropeptides that were released at the very
time of the infantile experience. You won’t know WHY you feel “frightened” or
“panicky” or “sad” or whatever the negative experience produced and you will
think it is something to do with whatever is going on in that room, or who you
are interacting with at that moment, without even being aware that the whole
experience is being triggered by the memory of the negative experience as an
infant in a blue room. Your mind will seek to rationalize the feeling by
blaming it on anything and everything, because the idea that the color of the
room could be the cause is too illogical.
Sure
maybe you avoid blue. You don’t “like” it, but you surely will never admit that
it can control your emotions and your experiences. It will be rationalized as a
“preference.” No reason, just is. Well, there are a lot of things in our lives
that we think are “us,” and they are not. They are programs.
Suppose
you have a very positive experience as a small infant with someone wearing a
blue baseball cap. When you are grown, you meet someone wearing a blue baseball
cap. You are flooded with the same neuropeptides that were released in the
pleasurable experience of your infancy and you are sure that you really LIKE
this person. Never mind that they turn out to be the worst enemy that you ever
had. As long as they are wearing that blue baseball cap while giving their
explanations for why they did rotten things to you, you will believe them
because the same neuropeptides will be flowing in response to the cap, and you
will be rationalizing in your mind why you should forgive and forget. Even if
they are not wearing the cap, the fact that you met them wearing the cap has
already formed a “matching” circuit to the original one…it has been augmented
and strengthened.
[…] The most interesting thing about this is
that the neuropeptide receptors are found all over the body; you have a “whole
body” sensation! You can actually “feel” it “flooding” like a “rush” through
your system! But I can guarantee to you that it is chemical. It has nothing to
do with higher emotion. And most definitely has nothing to do with objective
reality. Your imprinting creates your very own subjective view of the world and
maintain it. And it is in this way that we all live in “wishful thinking.”
The
neuropeptide receptors are also clustered in the gut in very high
concentration. We get “gut reactions” according to the programs set up in the
imprinting stages of infancy. It has nothing to do with the exact circumstances
of the present moment. It has everything to do with the “program” and the
response to some clue that turns on the neuropeptides of pleasure or trauma.
The receptors are also arranged in clusters along the spine and can be felt as
the “raising of kundalini” with the proper “cues” that may or may not be from
benign sources. This can also be a REAL initiatory event, but in that case, it
is activated from a different center and with different chemicals.
[…] To go against your own programming, to do
the opposite of what you feel because you have truly assessed the evidence
objectively, is exactly like going through drug withdrawal. And in the throes
of withdrawal, the individual will do almost anything to get the “fix” he needs.
Laura Knight-Jadczyk, The Wave, Part 13e
…"Oh yeah? Sez who?" has always been the
dominant driver [in me]. No matter how afraid I have ever been, I have always
had the ability to just walk into the fire, so to say. And yes, to my way of
thinking, taking the risk is better than anything. As somebody once said (I
think it was a Spanish freedom fighter whose name I have forgotten)
"Better to die on your feet than live on your knees." or words to
that effect…
…Ark has the idea that it [The Matrix Control System] runs
somewhat mechanically - it has a program and when we start acting like viruses,
it has sort of an automatic anti-virus feature that puts all kinds of things
into motion to deactivate us. But, in a sense, it is mindless and maintained
mechanically, even if that mechanical part of it is 4D paraphysical, hyperdimensional,…in other
words, sort of like cyborg machines connected to some sort of consciousness
that runs them more or less with or without direct awareness. So, with any of
us, when we begin to become aware, to act outside of the program, to even THINK
outside of the program - because apparently, it can even read THAT factor - all
hell breaks loose in our lives. And this is generally, based on some kind of
algorithm, specific to our particular programming. It finds the "back
door" to our consciousness, our emotions, and it can play one person
against another without EITHER OF THEM BEING AWARE that it is doing it! And
that is what
…the Matrix did absolutely everything possible to destroy
any possibility of our being together. It was a daily, hourly battle for 6
months, and then, once it lost the attempts to get in the backdoor of our own
minds, it then began concentrating on other "vectors" in our lives.
We just simply made an agreement that we would tell ALL of what we were
experiencing, thinking and feeling at any and ALL moments when things felt
"funny." This had to be a complete committment to not fudge, not cheat,
not hold anything back. And oh, did the programs ever run. And did I ever have
to confess to the darkest of thoughts, and the most amazing thought loops that
were set in my head. We gave these programs "names." And we learned
how to deactivate them.
But the most important part of that process is to SPEAK
them, to TELL - because the Matrix counts on us being so ashamed of what we
think that we won't tell it, and if we don't tell it, then the other person has
no opportunity to respond and say "oh, okay... well, here is the deal that
was going in my head, here is the program I was running... here is what was
happening..." etc etc. And when we tell, it is important for the listener
to really listen and understand, with no emotional attachment, that this is a
PROGRAM. If Ark would write something to me that set off one of these
"tapes," I would have to say: "okay, as soon as I read that,
here is what started happening... here is how I began to perceive things...
here is what convinced me that what I was thinking was right..."And
sometimes it was pretty awful, suspicious, related to things that had happened
to me, done by other people throughout my life.
So, it is certainly a process that takes a
Laura Knight-Jadczyk